Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Calling KaliMa

Hello Lexa
I am in trouble. I am pregnant, and I love being pregnant and I love my new little baby, who kicks and talks to me in my dreams. This child also kicks for my cats, who snuggle up against my belly and purr to it. I am desperate to be a good mother. I love this child so much already.

The child’s father, my erstwhile boyfriend and self described fiancee, has turned into a dangerous, frightening force in my life. (We are living far apart from one another, so actual immediate danger is unlikely.) He has called me a c--t. He has called me a b---h. He has threatened to serve me with papers to start our custody battle while I am in labour with our child. He is angry, because I do not want to be around him when he is drinking and I do not like his alcoholic friends or family members. He also told me that if I loved him, I was going to have to “choose between him and the truth.” I don’t want to be sworn at, belittled, threatened, abandoned, and hated. He is scared, but why is it manifesting this way? I feel like a stupid, stupid fool. I miss the man I loved. Once upon a time, we each wished for the other. I miss how loved he used to make me feel, and I miss my happy loving thoughts of him. I swing back and forth, thinking about how to love him and get him to treat me with love one minute, and how to get him out of my life the next. Sometimes I am so sad that he is missing all the fun, and missing me at the most beautiful and lovely I have ever been; I am all soft and watery, and yearn for him. Other times, I feel parched and hot and angry, and were it not for this child in my womb, I would feel like a wasteland, barren and bleak, and I wish one or both of us was dead. (I’m pulled back from those thoughts by our baby, who needs and loves us both. What can I do?)

I don’t think I can control his actions or thoughts. I would like to have some guidance about how to stay focused on what I need to do. I’m scattered, depressed, ashamed, and frightened. I feel alone. I need to make money (I REALLY need to make money) and be financially ready for this baby, and possibly for a court fight. I need to have work that fits with pregnancy and new motherhood, and some of mine does not. I need to build support networks and nurture the community I have. I need to confess and confide in people I love that I’ve messed up with this relationship, even if that is embarrassing. I need to figure out what my truest instincts about this man ARE, never mind learning to follow them. I need to be able to live with the grief and loss I feel, and to do the work I’m supposed to do in this life, whatever that is. I need to confront and deal with my own mistakes and patterns and the things that will hamper my ability to mother well. I need to keep myself and my baby safe and healthy.

How do I get him out of my head and find the discipline and grace to accomplish what I need to accomplish to prepare for the birth of this little one? Are their spells for women who love their babies, but who are caught like a deer in headlights, afraid of their own lives and afraid of their man? This post is too long, but I cannot be the only woman in this situation. What can we do?

Thank you, and Blessed Be


Dear Sasha
I feel for you deeply and I understand why you feel like a deer caught in the headlights because there are so many issues here. Often people feel overwhelmed because there are so many problems that need to be solved. Magick, like anything else, is best worked one step at a time. Let's begin with the most important of issues - You and the child in your womb. Believe it or not, you are in a position of great power although I understand that right now you feel helpless and hopeless. In the Wicca, and ancient Matriarchal paths, it is the Mother Goddess who rules the earth and you must turn to Her for Her power, protection, and prosperity. You must also allow Her to empower you as you already embody Her greatest attribute - that of Child Bearer.

I would instruct you to turn to the Durga and chant Her powerful mantra. Durga is the Mother aspect of the great and fierce triple goddess Kali. The Durga is depicted as an Amazon warrior who rides a tiger into battle. She defeats demons and defends her children. According to Barbara Walker in the Women's Encyclopedia of Myths and Secrets: "Durga stood for the basic animal instincts of maternity, for which the adult male is no longer significant, and only her offspring claims a mother's attention."
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I instruct you to chant Her mantra 108 times at night on the 5th of February. Durga has the power to exorcise the demons that have possessed your man. She has the power to return him to his senses as a loving and supportive husband and father. She also has the power to destroy him should he choose to cause harm to you or your child. Durga can help you with all legal matters concerning custody. She can bring you strength and sustenance, both spiritual and material and She can guide you toward others who can give you real support. She can heal your heart and clear your head of all confusion. Trust in the Great Mother to lead you and your child one step at a time toward safety, health, and prosperity. Here is the mantra:

Saith Isvara:
I shall tell thee the hundred names of Durga.
By the grace of this hymn the chaste Duga is satisfied.
Listen, then, thereto.

Chaste one.
Virtuous one.
Beloved of Bhava.
Spouse of Bhava.
The Manifested Brahman.
Liberatrix from the world of births and deaths.
Destructress of distress.
Victorious one.
Primordial one.
Holder of the spear.
Spouse of Him who holds the pinaka Bow.
Wonderful one.
Whose bell sounds fearfully.
Of great austerities.
In the form of citta.
Funeral pyre.
Whose substance is all mantras.
Whose nature is true bliss.
Endless one.
In whom are the three dispositions.
Accessible by devotion.
Pervading all things.
Spouse of S'ambu.
Mother of Devas.
Fond of gems.
All knowledge.
Daughter of Daksa.
Destroyer of Daksa's sacrifice.
Who eat not even a leaf during Thy austerities.
Of various colour.
Having a red colour.
Clad in silken garment.
Pleased with sweet-sounding anklets.
Of unbounded power.
House lady.
Forest Durga.
Daughter of Matanga.
Worshipped by the sage Matanga.
Spouse of Brahma.
Great Ruler.
In the form of the Purusa.
Pure one.
Essence of all.
The Supreme one.
Giver of buddhi.
Who art all.
Whose love is unbounded.
Mounted on a bull.
Destructress of Sumbha and Nisumbha.
Slayer of the Asura Mahisa.
Slayer of Madhu and Kaitaba.
Destructress of Canda and Munda.
And of all Asuras.
And of all Danavas.
Whose substance is all S'astra.
Holder of all weapons.
In whose hands are various weapons.
Holder of many weapons.
Ascetic one.
Old mother.
Giver of strength.

For the one who daily reads these 108 names of Durga
There is nothing impossible in the three worlds.
This person obtains wealth, crops, sons, spouse, horses, and elephants;
This person accomplishes the caturvar ga,
And gains lasting liberation.

Having worshipped the Devi Kumari,
And meditated upon Suresvari,
The devotee should worship,
And then read with devotion the 108 names of Durga.
O Devi ! such an one gains the fruition which Devas have;
Kings become this persons servants,
And this one obtains a kingdom and all prosperity.

You, who, versed in the sastric injunctions
In accordance, therewith, writes this mantra
With saffron mixed with cows' pigment, red lac,
camphor, and the three sweets, (ghee, honey, and sugar)
And then wears it, becomes Purari.

Whoever writes and then reads this humn
On a Tuesday in the dark moon,
At night, when the moon is in the twentyfourth mansion containing a hundred stars
Attains all wealth and prosperity.*
*from Hymns to the Goddess and Hymn to Kali by Sir John Woodroffe
and here the 108 names of Durga:
Durga The Inaccessible
Devi The Diety
Tribhuvaneshwari Goddess of The Three Worlds
Yashodagarba Sambhoota Emerging From Yashoda's Womb
Narayanavarapriya Fond of Narayana's Boons
Nandagopakulajata Daughter Of The Nandagopa Race
Mangalya Auspicious
Kulavardhini Developer Of The Race
Kamsavidravanakari Threatened Kamsa
Asurakshayamkari Reducer Of The Number Of Demons
Shilathata Vinikshibda At Birth,Slammed By Kamsa
Akashagamini Flew In The Sky
Vasudevabhagini Sister Of Vasudeva
Divamalya Vibhooshita Adorned With Beautiful Garlands
Divyambaradhara Beautifully Robed
Khadgaketaka Dharini Holder Of Sword And Shield
Shiva Auspicious
Papadharini Bearer Of Others' Sins
Varada Granter Of Boons
Krishna Sister Of Krishna
Kumari Young Girl
Brahmacharini Seeker Of Brahman
Balarkasadrushakara Like The Rising Sun
Purnachandra Nibhanana Beautiful Like The Full Moon
Chaturbhuja Four-Armed
Chaturvakttra Four-Faced
Peenashroni Payodhara Large Bosomed
Mayoora Pichhavalaya Wearer Of Peacock-Feathered Bangles
Keyurangadadharini Bejewelled With Armlets And Bracelets
Krishnachhavisama Like Krishna's Radiance
Krishna Dark-Complexioned
Sankarshanasamanana Equal To Sankarshana
Indradhwaja Samabahudharini With Shoulders Like Indra's Flag
Patradharini Vessel-Holder
Pankajadharini Lotus-Holder
Kanttadhara Holder of Shiva's Neck
Pashadharini Holder Of Rope
Dhanurdharini Holder Of Bow
Mahachakradharini Holder Of Chakra
Vividayudhadhara Bearer Of Various Weapons
Kundalapurnakarna Vibhooshita Wearer Of Earrings Covering The Ears
Chandravispardimukha Beautiful Like The Moon
Mukutavirajita Shining With Crown Adorned
Shikhipichhadwaja Virajita Having Peacock-Feathered Flag
Kaumaravratadhara Observer Of Fasts Like Young Girls Do
Tridivabhavayirtri Goddess Of The Three Worlds
Tridashapujita The Goddess Of The Celestials
Trailokyarakshini Protector Of The Three Worlds
Mahishasuranashini Destroyer Of Mahisha
Prasanna Cheerful
Surashreshtta Supreme Among The Celestials
Shiva Shiva's Half
Jaya Victorious
Vijaya Conqueror
Sangramajayaprada Granter Of Victory In The War
Varada Bestower
Vindhyavasini` Resident Of The Vindhyas
Kali Dark-Complexioned
Kali Goddess Of Death
Mahakali Wife Of Mahakala
Seedupriya Fond Of Drinks
Mamsapriya Fond Of Flesh
Pashupriya Fond Of All Beings
Bhootanushruta Well-Wisher Of Bhootaganas
Varada Bestower
Kamacharini Acting On One's Own Accord
Papaharini Destroyer Of Sins
Kirti Famed
Shree Auspicious
Dhruti Valiant
Siddhi Successful
Hri Holy Chant Of Hymns
Vidhya Wisdom
Santati Granter Of Issues
Mati Wise
Sandhya Twilight
Ratri Night
Prabha Dawn
Nitya Eternal
Jyotsana Radiant Like Flames
Kantha Radiant
Khama Embodiment Of Forgiveness
Daya Compassionate
Bandhananashini Detacher Of Attachments
Mohanashini Destroyer Of Desires
Putrapamrityunashini Sustainer Of Son's Untimely Death
Dhanakshayanashini Controller Of Wealth Decrease
Vyadhinashini Vanquisher Of Ailments
Mruthyunashini Destroyer Of Death
Bhayanashini Remover Of Fear
Padmapatrakshi Eyes Like The Lotus Leaf
Durga Remover Of Distress
Sharanya Granter Of Refuge
Bhaktavatsala Lover Of Devotees
Saukhyada Bestower Of Well-Being
Arogyada Granter Of Good Health
Rajyada Bestower Of Kingdom
Ayurda Granter Of Longevity
Vapurda Granter Of Beautiful Appearance
Sutada Granter Of Issues
Pravasarakshika Protector Of Travellers
Nagararakshika Protector Of Land
Sangramarakshika Protector Of Wars
Shatrusankata Rakshika Protector From Distress Caused By Foes
Ataviduhkhandhara Rakshika Protector From Ignorance And Distress
Sagaragirirakshika Protector Of Seas And Hills
Sarvakaryasiddhi Pradayika Granter Of Success In All Attempts
Durga Deity Durga
May Goddess comfort and protect you and keep me posted.
blessed be
Lady Venus

Renewal and Quick Cash

Hi Lexa
I have bought one of your power spells book which has a renewal spell and it say about 10 eggs that you take your bath with and once we have finished do you throw the eggs in the garbage or throw it in the river or what to do with it.

I also need some emergency money how do I go about with that.I need $3500.00 by the 20th of this month which spell shall I do to get that money,Please help me I have few payments behind.

Please e-mail me as soon as possible.

Thank you


Dear Asmeen

After you leave the bath, let all the water drain from the tub. Then gather the 10 eggs carefully without breaking them and place them in a paper and then a plastic bag. Take them outside your dwelling and throw them in the trash. As for your second request, I have the ingredients for a fast luck money bath up on my website. It works wonders so check it out!

Blessed Be

Monday, January 07, 2008

Freeze the Enemy Within

Dear Lexa,

Hi. My name is Amy, I have a question concerning a Freezer Spell. I respect your wisdom, I have a copy of the Supermarket Sorceress and it has helped me many times, to balance and achieve some peace in my life. What I wanted to know is if its possible to do a freezer spell on myself? This may sound odd, but if it can work on those that wish to make you miserable or on an enemy I thought I would apply this logic to me because sometimes I stand in the way of my own happiness- if that makes any sense. I don't physically hurt myself but I want to rid myself of alot of negativity and pain that I have carried for so long, I have talked about this in therapy and tried to rid myself of feeling bad but its still nagging me a little and I would really like to be free of it once and for all. Do you think this is possible, and if so can things be added to the water, such as honey or sugar to maybe help my attitude or an herb for clarity? I really appreciate your time and consideration on this and any advice you could share I would be grateful for. Sincerely-Amy

Dear Amy
believe it or not, you are not the first to ask this question of me. Yes, I suppose it is possible to use the freezer spell to "freeze" or put on hold negative traits within yourself. The problem lies in the fact that using this spell (instead of a good banishing spell) will only put these issues at bay and not truly banish or heal them.
Since you have the Supermarket Sorceress book, please check out the Spell to Break a Bad Habit, Obstacle Remover, and Spell to Banish Negativity as they are more suited to your situation.
blessed be